Just When You Think Things Are Going Great.....

Two things are certain in life. Death and taxes... right? What about making mistakes? What about forgiveness? These are two things I've noticed happens a heck of a lot in life. I don't care how young or old you are, everybody makes mistakes. SO when people make mistakes you usually forgive them, unless it's something that is unforgivable (i.e. cheating on someone). I've made my fair share of mistakes in life... some of which I can't believe I've been forgiven for. Most recently I've made one of my cousins extremely mad because I couldn't go to one of her Dr.'s appointments. Maybe I've understated it. Maybe I'm not seeing the bigger picture here. Maybe I'm insensitive, but I don't understand my mistake. I apologized for not being there, and I thought that should have been alright. Again, maybe I'm not seeing the big picture. I've always been there when she needed me... for 22, almost 23 years of her life I've been there for her... and now, because I missed one single Dr.'s appointment, she's ready to cast me out of her life. Am I shocked? No. I got to say I saw this coming. Everyone has to have one person in life they can blame things on... it's human nature not to take responsibility for your actions. No one wants to be blamed for things. If she wants to make me out to be this horrible person because of one little mistake, then I'm flattered she would pick me to be the bad guy. At least she was thinking of me. That in itself is sweet. With all of the hormones going haywire in a pregnant person's body, it's nice to be thought of for 2 seconds of the day.... even if it's a loathing hatred she has of me. However, I'm still confused on the why..... another diagnosis mystery i suppose. I hoped all the apologizing I did would've been enough to wayside this mistake. I mean, one can only apologize soooo much for one tiny mistake before it's just ludicrous... right? Well, I'm Sorry!! Again.... hopefully you can forgive this one little action and know that I've done so much else in your life that should make up for this. Especially when there was no one there for you and I was.... that should count for something.... right?
oh well. Check me off for my mistakes made this year.... I think I'm done.... no, wait... people make mistakes all the time! THAT'S RIGHT! hmmmm...... what will I do tomorrow to screw things up for myself? Tune in next week as the plot thickens for our heroine......